Silent Tears-

Ugh! Drama. I was doing a load of laundry, and it stopped. I was in my apartment and couldn’t hear the drier going anymore. I went to check, and the washer had stopped too. I called the maintenance man, not the landlord, and he told me to find the main breaker box and flip a switch. I knew what to look for as I have flipped these switches before in an old apartment. There are 5 boxes and the one I was in is labeled 3. It looked like the one was flipped wrong, so I flipped it and went back to check if the washer and drier would work and they didn’t. I was on the phone the whole time with the maintenance man, and he told me he just got in the house and didn’t want to come out today that he would do it tomorrow. I asked him what do you want me to do?… my clothes are in the washer and soaking wet. I engaged in the conversation being part of the argument now and he told me he had been drinking and would sober up and come out and fix it. He prior to this in conversation told me the last time he came all the way out here was for a shower head. I explained to him that this was different. I told him I can call my landlord. He said a comment about me calling the landlord and I told him that I am not trying to start something with you, but I CAN CALL the landlord. We argued and he told me he knew what the landlord would say to get off his butt and get out here and I said yeah and that’s when he told me he had been drinking. So, what’s my point. I just moved into this apartment on October 1st, and I have started out rough. I told my landlord I was in recovery when the truth is I was using and only stopped the day I moved in here. Which I wasn’t successful at and have only been clean AND in relationship with Jesus Christ again since November 5th. I am so blessed I am not sinning like that anymore. I have had so much healing since the 5th it is unbelievable to me. If anyone out there believes that they can drink and follow the Lord, they are wrong. They are actually drinking spirits. That is why it’s called wine and spirits. Some Christians profess to just drink wine. I guess you could say it is a controversial in the church today. Here is my take on it… the bible says repeatedly to be sober and that goes for everyone it’s not discriminatory on who can and who can’t drink because of addictions. It speaks to all to “be sober.” One place to go is Proverbs 31. King Lemuel’s mother tells him it’s not for kings to drink wine and princes to get drunk. Here is the actual scripture Proverbs 31:4 KJV, “It is not for kings, O Lemuel, to drink wine; not for princes strong drink:” verse 5 tells us why. I will let you do your own research and see what you come up with. It is wrong though to be a Christian and drink but hey it’s just my opinion. Right? Oh yeah, my point is that this drama with the maintenance man will come back on me, and I will get kicked out. That is how the system works against me. I am new here. The landlord had had no other problems with his maintenance man before I got here it is a problem because I am here. I am the problem. No, the maintenance man is the problem. If he wouldn’t have been drinking, or drunk even, he could come out here and do his job but hmm, he is not able to. The maintenance man did tell me to knock on number 1’s door and ask him for help so I did. Great call Dezaray. Otherwise, it definitely falls back on me. This is what is messed up. When I am drinking everyone’s all ok with it because it’s what they are doing too and somehow when I am in those relationships and drinking, I am the problem too. When I sin, drinking is a sin, among others, I am the problem. In this situation today I am telling the truth, and I still am the problem. Guess it’s a lose lose situation, except with the truth God wins. John 14:6 KJV “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth and the life: no man cometh to the father, but by me.” So, ya see I will win with the truth even if not today. People don’t like the truth. “Good people” claim they like the truth but hate Jesus, you can’t do one or the other it’s you love both or none at all. Ever bring attention to a “good person” and how they wronged you? See how well that goes over. I am trying to do that with an attorney, and I can’t even get him to call me back, like I have been told he would multiple times. Beating a dead horse, maybe, but I have to be assertive. I need closure if that asshole is going to get away with what he did to me. Big sigh. I will let you know how it goes with the “good attorney.” I will end. End.