Silent Tears-

Well I am feeling better, a lot better. I went to my attorney’s office after calling him and getting voicemail. They answered the door, and I have a phone conference scheduled for tomorrow at 12:30. It is like this: if I don’t get my case heard I am the victim in my own head, and it is at the forefront of my mind that this man is going to get away with abusing me. It’s there, it doesn’t leave me. Do I seem surprised at this? No. People who have abused me throughout my whole life have always gotten away with it like it never happened or better yet the core belief that it doesn’t matter, that I don’t matter. Truth is on this planet with approximately 8 billion people, I don’t matter. But the abuse and getting justice matters to me. It is more that suing for money. It is standing up for myself saying you can’t do that to me! You can’t treat me the way you did and get away with it! Taking a stand, ya know? Breath release (without so much stress and with love). It is a loving thing to stand up for yourself against others who have wronged you, but just in general as well. To take a stand where you believe, say something of your own than just what the world wants you to believe in, being yourself even if what you say might seem offensive to another person. Most people don’t, myself included, but that time is changing, it needs to. Otherwise, I will always feel suffocated by the world and staying silent when that quiet voice tells me to speak up and I don’t. You know the one where you are in conversation and it just gets to you like no, no, that’s not right and you have the words to say it you just don’t. What a disappointment I am to myself at being an original and having a voice where in this world you are looked down upon if your opinion doesn’t agree with the worldly norm or society’s beliefs. End.