Silent Tears-

SUCCESS! I bought the slienttears.blog domain today. Right away this morning. I spent less time with the Lord, and I am completely worn out and it is only 2:00 p.m. I also decided what I am going to do. I am going to sell my truck and get a new apartment. I can’t afford the one I am at, and I am set up for disaster here with the type of landlord I have. The apartment is part of a 4 plex tht was converted to an apartment building so all electricity is wired wrong. The hear is boilers and will not be split fairly. So, I started to look for an apartment on Facebook there are a lot right now under $700. This could be really good for me. I am praying the Lord comes through for me and gets me a cheaper and better apartment. The attorney didn’t call me today, but I was reassured he would call me today. I pray he does. I need some sleep. Ya know I have been suicidal over this on top of nightmares, what is that type of pain worth? I had a physical injury that pain alone, I believe, is worth $150,000. So, what of the psychological damage he had sone to me? I think it’s worth $250,000 and here is why: a broken hip bone got an inmate $146,000. His bone will heal my physical wounds will last for the rest of my life. I will always have some type of pain, and it will fluctuate between pain levels and where the pain takes place. Another roller coaster tide for the rest of my life. Then these scars which are done to me on the inside might not go away ever either. Lord, I beg you now, let them heal. I can’t live the rest of my life with nightmares and sleeping like I do. I will never be a truck driver again if I can’t sleep at night like it is now. My sleep has gotten a lot better. I sleep best when I eat a pound of meat, literally. My med is a protein and if I eat meat, a protein, it helps it work better. My plans were to do nothing today and I did a lot. I went to the back and paid rent. I went shopping and got some more items to sell. I got a used tire to fix my truck and sell it. I am tired though and I need to take the rest of the day off. Big things happening today. I will let you know how the phone call goes, if it takes place. Having hope today. End.