Silent Tears-

I am physically sick today. I don’t want to be graphic, so I will just say I spent a lot of time near the toilet and in bed. I got everything I needed to get done today and more. I did everything today, I called my mechanic, I called my auto insurance, I went to the DMV, picked up my meds, AND called the clerk of courts to have my biological father’s name put on my birth certificate. The lady at the clerk of courts had found the child support case and said it would take her until next week to get the document pulled out and that she would call me back and let me know of the next steps I can take. It has been on my mind a lot today and has brought up all kinds of emotions. One mainly I want to stand firm on my anger and say I don’t have a father, but what if we talk? What if we can be adults about it? What if in his old age and in my growing up there could be some sort of regular communication and relationship. It is too much for me to take on. I have to do baby steps with it. On top of being physically sick, I am worn down again. This time it feels like I got nothing in me. I plan on taking my meds at 18:00 and go lay down to hopefully sleep off this but I got. It is short and sweet tonight. One last thing I got a laptop with Wi-Fi, so I can create my blog page. This is going to be fun! End.