Silent Tears-

I finally got a job…guess what it is…it is you Silent Tears. I work as a servant for the Lord again doing His will. No one wants to give me a job for any and every reason of my past, felonies, mentally ill, poor job history, but Jesus says, “You are hired.” He is always looking for a willing soul to serve Him. I had a great day…finally. I feel renew in the Holy Spirit and alive in my soul. I feel like someone who has life again, not a death on the inside. I had church potluck today and also watched my pastor online (the two are different, I go to church for fellowship and watch a different pastor online). At church I felt so alone and separated, mainly because how I was treated by a fellow Christian believer. I thought about working in the kitchen today and how the Lord was accepting me, not the people at church. I am reminded that it is better to be accepted only of the Lord than to be accepted by everyone on earth. God has the final say… it is better to walk alone in this world with God than to walk in this world with everyone but still be alone. I tried to reach out to my neighbor today. She was drunk but I still thought it good to invite her up to my apartment to watch my pastor with me and it wasn’t a good idea. I was trying to help God and followed what I thought was ok, not from the Holy Spirit. I am still learning how much it hurts to think I could have drawn my neighbor further from God. Please Lord forgive me. The joy today has been wonderful! I haven’t had a day like this in a long time. I have been trying to do everything and everything in my own strength. That did not work out so well. I did land on solid ground though. I landed on a Sunday volunteering at my church, coming home and watching my pastor and had a day of rest. I debated whether to write to you or not, Silent Tears, because it is work and a job now, but I need to do it every day. For the Lord and for myself. You help me that much. i just couldn’t believe it this morning…I have told not a single friend, I did tell my mom I bought the domain, but the page wasn’t up. I did that all yesterday and would you believe it someone read my 11/29/2024 post AND liked it. I was encouraged right away. It touched my heart. Thank you, you know who you are. The thing is I probably don’t need to promote you Silent Tears because God will bring the right people to you. That is how God works when it is HIs work and His will. You just have to show up willingly to do what He has called you to do, and He does the rest. Loving life and the Lord today. Praise Jesus, Amen. End.