Silent Tears-

I am so tired and can’t sleep. My body cannot find the right temperature. I am warm under my blankets but the air around me is cold, so I am cold but start to sweat. This is torture and my landlord isn’t going to do a thing about it. I will be surprised if they even send the heating company out at all. My head hurts I have body aches I am cold I have a cough all over MONEY. I know this will end it a court case either way now so just bring it on. I have been through so much shit I am tired, very tired of fighting the same type of wicked people in this world. I NEED a good night’s sleep for my mental health, and I don’t think I will get it. Lord, I am praying you bless me with a good night’s sleep. I just touched my register it is a lot cooler now. I just am sunk stuck here. I would rather be homeless than take the abuse I took today and the neglect I am getting. I will just have to let him hang himself and let it all play out. He triggered my PTSD, and I am still on edge from it. I have listened to my coping music. I have all my blankets on me. I can try sleeping in my hoodie. I just…don’t want to have to go through this again. But I have to. I have no choice no outs,… nothing, just to endure the suffering. So, wish me luck because I don’t respond well to being abused. End.