Silent Tears-

I have much to be grateful for today. My darkness/depression is a lot less. At about 15:00-16:00 my anti-depressant wears of thought and then I can’t do anything. I am not motivated at all and just want to sit there. That is what it was like in the morning when I used to leave and go to the casino to get out of the rut. I went to the pantry today and got a lot of good food. A lot of sweets. I like sweets by the way. I had called the trucking company this week and they haven’t returned my phone call yet, but I believe it to be a good thing. Insurance has to accept me before they can offer me a job. I am confident I will be getting this job. I am so happy about it. I think that if I get it, I will cry I will be so happy. I am concerned about being able to afford my medicine. The one, Rexulti, is $1,700 for a month’s supply. I need a really good prescription plan. I mean really good. I plan to put the maximum amount in my HSA account and do the best I can. To me if I would break even financially with what I get now it would still be worth it for me to work. I got help today from the Salvation Army with a fuel card. That will help me get through the month or part of it. I don’t have too much to say today so I’ll end.