Silent Tears-

I am completely cut off from God. I am surrounded by darkness, and I don’t know when I am getting out this time. I have to completely quit and be a truck driver or continue on until when? It just seems right to quit now giving that spring is on its way and weather is favorable. I CAN do it; I just don’t do it though. What am I waiting for? I have the solution, so ok. I don’t know when though. I will see. I do miss you and life. I am just high all day, morning until night. End.