Silent Tears-

I had the best meeting today and then I had another terrible meeting in a different fellowship. This has shown me exactly where I need to be and that is in all 3 fellowships with a specific one doing the steps in that program. I am emotionally drained right now and feeling a lot of mental pain as well as emotional. I can’t allow people to let me feel this way that is why I gamble, not to feel like this. I just sit there and don’t care about a thing. I smoked a cigarette and realized I am too worn out and tried to write right now. I am going to practice self-care and go to bed. End.