Silent Tears-

I caught a break…a big break. I can legally terminate my lease because of the Japanese beetles infestation. I just found out today after deciding to reread the laws. My only eviction case came from me intentionally not paying rent due to finding out that the issue the first time with bed bugs wasn’t treated properly. If you treat a bed bug infestation with chemicals, it has to be treated 3 times for the chemical treatment to work and my landlord then only treated once. This landlord, this time, didn’t call a pest control agency to come look at within 10 days of my reported claim when they found out I actually had an insect infestation. He had to do that by law and did not. I will win in a court guaranteed and he will have to pay me back rent. I hope he does come after me. I am sick and tired of being treated bad by people. It kills me on the inside. It is like I just want to be normal, have a normal landlord tenant relationship and I don’t get that. I get legal cases. I have forgotten about my case with the correctional officer (C.O.) and have gotten some peaceful nights sleep. I slept from beginning to end with no nightmares last night and for 8, yes, a whole 8, hours’ sleep uninterrupted. What a blessing today has been. After wanting to move I have been blessed with a way out legally. I am still going to pay my utilities bill, number one, it is the right thing to do, and two it will look good for a judge if it comes to that. I am nervous because I have stayed in the apartment, but what was I to do? I just got the apartment, and no one would rent to me, so where would I have gone? I am afraid now that I still won’t be able to get an apartment because of my past criminal record, my bad credit, and the eviction that is on there. Deep breath with lots of stress. I still really don’t want to go to court it is the good in me to want him to come after me because he IS in the WRONG. Deep breath with stress but also with love and relief. I went thrifting today to get more items for my ministry. I hope people don’t miss judge me for that. I do pay for the items, and I take the time to shop for them. I do sell them for a profit, but I try to keep it reasonable and sometimes to just put them so cheap someone will be blessed by the items and price. I have to make it fun too thought if I ever get readers and followers of my “Silent Tears” journal. I am going to take this time to feel my feelings and enjoy some peace about my future. At least I am not homeless today. It is winter and December in Wisconsin and I have a warm apartment at least. End.