Silent Tears-

I am in a pickle, something so tight to get out of like in baseball. I have to give that 60-day notice before I move, but apartments are available now and for January 1, 2025. I was counting on my truck selling today but the guy hasn’t showed yet or responded to my messages. I can’t trust anything I hear. even things that sound familiar or I have trusted of myself in the past. I just don’t have trust with myself. It is so hard to function like this. I can’t always, like nagging people to respond to my messages, because it nags at me on the inside. I know I can afford this apartment. I want to just send in my 60-day notice and hope to land somewhere nice. How do I go about this? I have to get out of this apartment. I can’t afford it. I can’t plan to move either with no money. I at least needed the money today.

I am angry. Angry at myself, angry at life, angry for not having simple things like trust……..Why? A question with feelings of hate. I hate my life…again. I am trying to hold on to hope for a better tomorrow that might never come.

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