Silent Tears-

I have to let go. I have let go things in the past, but with not knowing how I did it. So, what has been at the forefront of my mind is how I could have so much more right now if I would have done anything but gamble that $25,000 away. I have some to this conclusion, to let go I have to do this: I have to feel my feelings about it and then force myself to stop thinking about it, move one, and let go. I first had to look at it. Taking a look at my life and how it would be so much different if I had a newer Ford Explorer sitting in my driveway instead of a 2007 Honda civic. How I could have better things. I did buy a few things like a pair of Birkenstock sandals but sold the for 1/3 of the price I paid for them and went to the casino with the $50 I got back. I mean it’s disheartening what I have done and where I am at today. You know it took me only a month to go through $25,000. I have seen now what gambling (a sin) has done to me. It changed me into a wicked person. A person I am not, but none the less was, again. I am just getting my day started and slept really will, so I’ll end. End.