Silent Tears-

So I feel like I am on cocaine and I am not. The problem is I like cocaine. The med I am on is wellbrutrin and my doctor upped my dosage and had changed the type of pill. Before I had went off my medicine I was on 200mg and took it once a day. She started me off this time on 100 mg and definitely wasn’t enough because it wore off a few hours after I took it. I kept telling her that the last dosage was 200mg but I was unsure because it was a few years ago. She said that the pills only came in doses 0f 100 mg or 150mg. So, we decided to try 150mg XL of wellbrutrin. The XL means that it is time release that over time it keeps “releasing” the medicine in my system. This was not right still. So, I had an appointment on last week Thursday and today is Tuesday, she upped it to 300mg XL and added abilify and took me off rexulti. A lot to swallow but it is important if someone else is going through a med change like this. The fist day I took the new 300mg dosage and abilify. I was so happy because I felt normal again. I felt like me. That was what I had been trying to get back to and I thought that is it. The abilify wore off between 16:00-17:00 and I thought that if that was just upped too that I would be set. Well I have not slept over 7 hours in the last 5 days and it has caught up with me. I am naturally yawning and tired but can’t sleep because I am so “up”. I feel like I am on cocaine and I come down a little then go right back up. I am repeating myself now and losing my mind some so I will have to end. To be continued…End.